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that moment when taylor swift first sees kanye west on stage performing 'all day' in london.
there's flames and fire.
this is my generation's moment.

she bobs her neck and shoulders unrealistically. what is she?
just to think about her gives me shivers.
the form of her. her length.
the angel of everything we're striving for.
that red lip, classic thing that we like.
like a sucker punch between the legs.
just look her up on google images, you'll feel it.

and what is kayne west? framed between flamethrowers.
barely able to open his mouth.
hunched over a midi keyboard in brioni slacks.
he is a vision of something but we don't know what. he is a choice made deliberately.
he couldn't have been this just 20 years ago.
we would hold our wallets closer, then and now.

my friends and I have expendable income.
its a joke, really to spend 100 dollars on top dawg entertainment shorts.
or 500 dollars on a hoodie.
the money means nothing now and will mean even less in five years.
when we know we will have more of it.
this is the way of things.

her mouth opens up and she can't believe it.
tell him i've been on ten since the tenth grade nigga.

everyone knows the slang after three or four months.
from twitter or vine.
when it's already played out.
but I know it months before that and so I'm real.
my half sister breastfeeds a half black baby and his dad works at wing stop and so I'm real.
the streets of alameda.
someone once showed a gun to me on central avenue.

taylor swift lights up with the expectation that something might happen to her that she doesn't expect.
and we all want this right?
whats really real. what isn't scripted or paid for by your dad.
what life might look like without a safety net.
except from behind a liquid crystal display.

you will splurge on free-range meats.
or vegan protein powders.
you understand your 401(k) at least basically.

please god show us what's really real.
the more time i spend in front of my computer the less that things seems to happen to me.
he can pay for 50 dudes to lunge and bob behind him.
and we want that.










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