learner-led conference

i skipped breakfast today. it was 11:30 before i'd even had a glass of water.

now it feels like everything is spinning out from under me. like my whole life, it's connections, it's intrigue, it's direction, are actually false and hollow. like my life is just a series of tasks i perform to take up the time.

do i always feel like this? except usually i'm kept warm in a cocoon of health and wellness, insulated from this feeling by regular balanced meals? is half a day without breakfast the wake-up call i needed to realize that i'm not happy? that this isn't right?

i can't post my journal entries from one year ago because they're very dark and ugly. but also because they're saying the exact same things. wake up man. get out of this job. get off of your computer. get out of napa.

i'm stuffing my face with pita chips and cherry tomatoes
trying to level things out