Tuesday, March 20, 2018

tuesday march 20th 2018

the day before my 29th birthday

i just watched "tall bikes will save the world" and i'm feeling super inspired

my current place doesn't inspire me
my current occupation doesn't inspire me
challenge me yes, push me yes, encourage growth yes
but inspire me no
i tried to impress someone today by telling them about a 10 car underground garage with a spinning turntable used for storing ferraris

fuck

what does inspire me?
the idea of making things for fun, of having fun making things
building a cabin in the woods with my friends, felling the trees ourselves, no roads in sight carrying all of the materials in by bike
rope swings and shit

what inspires me is buying a van and painting it with psychadelic colors and building beautiful shelves inside and driving around and reminding everyone that this is a joyous experience, a wild adventure, that this isn't some TV show that's just happening to us

that we can make things
we can make our own experience

i want to move my body outside, instead of in a gym
i want to teach little kids how to weld shit
how to use a nail gun
i want to install huge public art without anyone's permission, to drill & epoxy it to the sidewalk, to make it so indestructible that people are like "fuck it" and just leave it there
forcing their hand

this is a crazy, wild, raucous, adventure LETS FUCKING PLAY WITH IT

i'm feeling manic i want to run right now

how can i find a balance with this
or how can i make people pay me for it

atm1

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