shapeshifter

a friend recently referred to me as a 'shapeshifter' in my diet, interests, and personality

i think the comment was meant neutrally but i chose to take it as a compliment - i've always valued flexibility & deft, wanted to be comfortable in every group or situation. since childhood i've identified - chronologically - as:

mama's boy

extreme nerd

class clown

rocker

skateboarder

tagger

hippy

hyper-competitive ultimate frisbee player

poem writer

anarchist

party boy/party machine (mostly a reaction to how bad the anarchist thing went)

carpenter

letter writer

chess player

distance runner

vegan distance runner

business professional

rock climber

dirtbag

skateboarder again

at each point i believed whole-heartedly, i felt my self was fully represented. today i was wandering along the beach in Oregon, slightly beer-drunk, and wondering what 'me' was painted between these points, what figure my constellation drew.

through all of the above, i think there's been maybe three constants:

1. i like to be physical, to move my body

2. i like to write things down

3. i'm desperately searching for romantic love

there's no conclusion here it's just some thoughts i had why are you reading my journal