i've felt so many new emotions

this experience seems to constantly deepen, ripen, and change

life a rich black soil from which so much has grown. 

 i used to want to write about them 

 (about the fear of not finding love, 

 of secretly masturbating to pictures of my friends,

 the energy in the room when it's just boys,

 etc. etc.) 

 but now i often don't.